Expect The Unexpected When You Almost Reach Out

Recently my right below eyelid kept twitching. Damn annoying lo. It's been so annoying i even went to googled it.-__-!!

What i get from my sifu google was :-

• Stress [ stress maybe but i dont think that im super stress lo. I still got time to eat and sleep and laze around.. and refreshing FB pages and read thru blogs.. Hmm.. Am i stress??]

• Tiredness [ well.. maybe too. Cause of work but i think it's still ok for now ]

• Eyestrain [ no idea.. dont think so ]

• Caffeine [ impposible.. as i dont really drink coffee ]

• Alcohol [ Definitely not the issue coz i dont drink for quite sometime d.. erm.. Starker anyone? LOL ]

• Dry eyes [ not really.. ]

• Nutritional imbalances [ lack of veggie perhaps and too much instant noodles.. grr ]

• Allergies [ no idea ]
  

Im so broke right now.. *crying out loud*

Look what i've bought for myself in this month itself..




Got somehow influenced by my manager and got the urge to try out this product myself as there's Christmas promotion too ( come on.. who doesn't want to use SK-II right? So called the Miracle water.. LOL! ) and this leads me being broke for this month. Im so gotta save already as Im planning to get my new car by early next year ( unless someone willing to sponsor me which i dont mind at all if there's someone so kind-hearted.. hahhaha! *dreaming*).

Ever since i got my own salary, i think i tend to spend more. Food especially.. and also some other stuff like clothes, bag, shoes.. *gasp* Back then during uni time, i couldn't be bother of these stuff.. hardly spend over hundred for a bag or clothes. Heh. Now i think i need more clothes. Been wearing the same clothes to work.. -_-!!

Need to get my salary asap.. else my savings will be drying up very very soon.. ggrrrhh.


PS : All the best to my younger bro on his SPM 2morrow and also to all other SPM candidate. Good Luck! -cheers-

My blog is dead.. updating blog is getting lesser. =/ I even thought of giving up blogging already. *gasp*

Anyway, after my long long disappearance in my blog world, im here to say that im still gonna update my blog once in a blue moon perhaps. Started working (its been like 2 months plus already) and been busy from morning till night which i never in my life fancy this kind of life..ever. Back then during my uni life, i could easily skip classes for days whenever i want to but now i cant skip work and can never leave office on time everyday.. fml.

Some clients are so hard to please and f* their life... always end up that they are right all along and im the one who got the blame. hmpf... enough of ranting bout work. It doesn't make my day at all. But good thing that my colleagues are friendly and helpful. Besides, i was pretty lucky that i could meet up and get to know some local artist.

By the way... Did i forget to mention that im officially graduated?


convocation on the 22nd August 2010 @ Wisma MCA.

I cant seems to upload any pictures here. Pls visit my facebook for photos =)

Last week we went over to visit 'uncle lim'.. it was a last minute plan as we are following someone there and got a free stay.. so why not rite..

And so we tried our luck there...



This is how much we won including our modal.. *gasp*



And this is how much we had at the end...


*FOL* o.O


Actually we left about 20-30% of our modal.. damn sad case rite.. =/

And so I’ve graduated and off looking for a job. Got my first interview last Monday and totally nail it… considering if I should take this job at first but after that decided to accept this offer as the boss sms-ed me later that night saying that he can give me my expected salary and hope that i will join their company. There’s pretty much things that i need to do now… currently finding a place to rent and hope to get a car soon. As my job scope will need me to be meeting clients outside. Working in an advertising firm is what I hope to be in thou. Anyone have a place for me to rent in Desa Petaling? Do let me know..

Anyway, haven’t been updating for awhile.. been going back and forth from Malacca to KL because of my streamyx (whom loves me so much that they didn’t want to terminate my account) termination that I did last month. Checked my status in Malacca and it showed that my account is still running active. -_-! And so just now went over and settle all those stuff already and right now i’m just gonna be waiting for the final bill and a cheque in the mailbox.


Ok .. gonna blog about my birthday.. One word to describe it… TRULY UNEXPECTED! Ok I know.. that’s 2 words.. but still it really did surprised me a lot. Firstly in my previous post I did mention that my baby won’t be around for my birthday as he got work to do in Penang… which I’m pretty ok with it cause it was work afterall.. I didn’t expect him to like die die also must be here with me during my birthday right. Unless he told me that he had a party going on in penang and that he couldn’t make it… that would be another story already. LOL. And so.. silently sneaking behind me.. my girls and baby plan to give me a surprise. On Thursday nite my baby told me that he will be pretty busy on Friday( which is my birthday) and I didn’t even aware of anything and the thought of he coming back to Malacca never cross my mind at all. (Penang – Malacca… totally FARAWAY) Besides that apparently, baby didn’t sms me much( he did send a few sms but nothing fishy at all) on that day (which is acceptable cause he got work to do) and my girls didn’t contact me as well during the day and only contacted me around evening while I was taking a nap. Carol said that she wanna meet up for dinner.. which according to her only SHE will be there.. ( sound a lil fishy to me already .. haha) but I got a date with my cousin Rachel for Nadeje earlier on.. so i went over Nadeje with my cousin first before meeting carol at Windmill.

And there… when I reached Windmill with my cousin I saw a few of my girls there and baby was there. I was like “ @_@?!” this kinda expression when I saw him there and was actually thinking if it was really him or someone else that looks like him. LMAO. He said that he started his journey back in the morning and reach here around late afternoon just for my birthday. *melts* and not forgetting my girls who was there.. Tika, Jolene and Teng and as well as my cousin. A surprise birthday cake for me too when I came out from the toilet… LOL! *Love*


Wanna thank everyone that had wish me in FB.. MSN and SMS and also to my parents who gave me angpao .. hehe =) Thanks to my baby and my girls for the surprise and to my cousin Rachel for the Nadeje treat. *Love Love Love*

Gonna be 22 in awhile more. Woot~ Well actually im already 22 as in according to the chinese calendar its was last 2 daays (9th June - 4th month Day27) . Heh =)

and im now here blogging about this... hmm..
Mr BF can't be here because he got to be in Penang for his work... fml.
Anyway.. gonna have prayings for my grandpa for the 49 days 2morrow morning and having lunch at grandma's house.. =)

Let's see who actually remember my birthday ( since FB is not showing any notification on Birthday section.. ) LOL.

till then.. ciao.

LOL.. got prayings in the morning for grandpa 2morrow.. then lunch at grandma's house. Then after that no idea d.. Yea.. im getting old.. =/ but u older than me!

Ask me anything

Guess I'm back again into the blog world. 2 months plus without updating my blog.. geez. Sometimes I just don't feel like updating anything here as blog no longer be the place where i can really spill out all hidden secrets/gossips about something. We don't really know who is actually been reading whatever we are typing here, do we? Ah well.. that's the main thing bout blogging. Its either we set it as private blog where you have no so however have the intention to generate some income through blogging and no one will ever know what u are blogging OR set it as public and blog whatever you want without getting sue for offenses and could actually generate some income through blogging ( which currently what i'm doing cause im officially GRADUATED =b and JOBLESS =/ ).


So before that.. click on the ads by Nuffnang for me please.. hehe...


Finally I have Graduate.. Goodbye to "waking up early morning attending lecture/tutor class at 8am" and Hello to " waking up in the afternoon and laze around at home ". Gotta get my resume done and start applying for jobs soon already i guess..Well... there's been kinda lotsa stuff happened in the past 2 months.. both happy and sad moments too.


Update with pictures...

Celebrated Yoke Lee's birthday @ WongKok, One Utama.

Drank 2 pint of Starker Beer for the first time and experience the 'after effect' of the beer and puke =/ (embarrassing max.. Sorry Jimmy and Mooks =/ )

After that went over to celebrate Carmen's Birthday @ Four Happy Season Restaurant.

Me and Carmen in the room with the temperature of 15 °C .


Then just about the starting on my Study week break for my final exams, I came back home for the weekend and decided to go back PJ after that to have study group with my friends but sadly and unexpectedly, the day after i was back Malacca, everyone was shocked by the utterly bad
news of that my grandpa had just pass away =/ and i haven't met him for like i think a few months. Sigh.

And so everyone was busy preparing and handling the funeral... lotsa crying going on.. lotsa story being told..grieving... and at the mean time i was kinda worry about my exam too. It's kinda hard to fully put my 100% concentration on what i was reading... and the first subject was Communication Law.. which i lagi la got no mood to study. But not to worry.. i passed the paper =)

Anyhow, May grandpa Rest in Peace and he will always be remembered by all of us.
~ 6/7/1935 - 24/4/2010 ~


Moving on... exam week begins and...


another drinking session with them after our first final paper ends ( Communication Law) @ Beer Garden, Sunway.


There's a night where it rained heavily in PJ and an ahpek with a lorry accidentally knock down my front gate. o.O and i thought he's trying to break in as im home alone that night. Geez..

After our 3rd final paper ends.. we went over to Movida, Damansara for another drinking session.

And then... 12th May was our last paper and we had steamboat party.


Had a graduation trip with AV3 to Lang Tengah on the 17th May whereby we make a move from KL on the 16th May. Tiring journey thou but definitely worth it.

Love the beach to the max ..

Happy us!
From left : Li Yuen, Lay Theng, me, Juchin, Jimmy, Xin Ke, Huwee Ping, Kelly, Junjun, Shwu Zhen.

Pictures above on the beach taken by Mooks with his DSLR.

From zhen's DSLR.. on the boat going for snorkeling. Snorkeling for the first time too. Awesome max.

On our second day in Lang Tengah.. celebrated Li Yuen's birthday.

And last day of the trip.. group photos! =)

Everyone's gonna go separate ways now... Hoping them the best and for me too as I'm still in the mood to laze around doing nothing at the moment. gaahh. =/


That's all for this post now..been pending it since yesterday.. to be continued..

Haven't been updating for a month..!! Its been a month already since i last update huh??? damn fast wei..Like what those famous quotes said " Time flies with a blink of an eye." ..and my first draft of my FYP dateline is like next 2 weeks! dammitt!! and im still in chapter 2.. and.. i haven't make appointment with my supervisor yet.. FML. Alrite.. now since im reminding myself of my slow progress on my FYP.. im having cold sweat d.. Pray hard for me that i could manage to hand in on time ayte.


Nothing much that i would like to blog about actually.. because recently nothing much happening in my life other than go to class.. cook simple meals for myself.. meet up with a friend and went shopping..hang out with b (whom i could hardly meet .. sigh), hang out with my bro and his friends.. cleaning my room and the house.. doing laundry.. lazing around.. FB-ing ( social city.. cafe world.. petville.. -_-!! ) .. trying to concentrate doing my FYP but end up failed because i was distracted by FB ( yess.. blame it on FB!! gahaha!! ) blablabla.. conclusion = I'm a bored person. gasp!

I love my Vincci heels =) Bought it for Chinese new year. Ok this is so random.. plz ignore.

Anyway, i miss my girls back there in Malacca.. and glad that A.T's operation was a success. According to Carol, she was still kinda weak after the operation but if everything goes well.. she can leave the hospital by 2morrow.. =) Hope to see her soon.

By the way.. does anyone know where to get bus ticket back to Malacca??? and where to take the bus?? Why la they must close down Pudu at this time.. ish! Wanna go back Malacca also damn ma fan d now.


Movies that i'm looking forward to watch...

Alice in Wonderland 3D. Hopefully i can get to watch this tonight *crossing fingers*

The Lovely Bones.. Heard from friends that it was a nice movie to watch.

and the last one...

Read comments on this movie.. and according to em' this movie could actually make u cry.. woot~ so emo. hahhaha!!!

oh there's another movie. Just Another Pandora's Box. Watched the trailer...and it was super funny lor. Must watch.

so... Come.. quick date me for a movie !! =]

Pardon me on my previous post.. i was in fume and wrote something like that. i damn malas wan to start another arguement already.. its been like 4 months? crap..

Everything should be ok now i guess.. forget and forgive rite? yea.. I cant make myself to think negatively over this matter now. Coz i know there's still people around me who loves me dearly. I've made them so worry especially my family. Mom called me just now to ask me if im ok and why wanna fight again over the same matter.. and on fb? LOL. Kinda ridiculous rite. So yea.. make peace.. Mom ask me to be more patience which i think i am being patience for all this while. And all i can do is continue being patience and perhaps forgive? If that's the right thing to do.. then yea i do forgive u again. If you still wanna be friends then im cool with it cause i dont wish to have a grudge on someone. Its not ok at all.

To my yayang ( u know who u guys are) .. thanks for the support. I know i've made u guys worry too.. but dun worry d k.. Im fine =) Hope to see you guys soon in Malacca. And also to my other close friends who had called me and msged me.. its ok now guys.. im cool with it. B had been worried bout me too coz he's far away from here and can't accompany me.. but its ok.. he got his work to do and i dowanna trouble him so much.

And now my sore-throat is damn fucking sore lo.. FML. No appetite to eat anything.. wan swallow also damn pain... and my toes had blisters.. double FML!

I should have seen this coming. but what can i do? Lie to myself and everyone? Why cant you just understand the situation right now? Hellooo... your not a kid anymore.. please grow up! A man is suppose to be strong so that the woman feels secure.. now i know what i did was right.. coz what i need is not someone like you.. you're just plain too fragile that it scares me to even look at you and have a proper conversation which might end up im looking at your so called emo/sad/looking for sympathy face that i can't stand it anymore. It hurts doesn't it? And you're pulling me together and trying to make me feel guilty isn't it? FYL! I know you will say that you are not aware of it and you wanna die or someone please kill me.. blablabla.. plain immature. If you wanna die so badly.. go on.. and make million of people hate me. That's what you want.. isnt it? FML.

What happen to the words that you once said? yea im sure you have forgotten it again and again. Fuck it la. Dont ever make promises if you gonna forget it can or not? What being positive and no more negatives la.. wants me to be happy la..be friends like how we use to be... BULLSHIT! I'm sure u gonna start blaming on me again rite.. saying that its because of me you cant do it and you did tried but failed... Duh... please wake up la dei.. can you stop being all emo and get sympathy from others? Do you know that what you're doing is making you look like a fool and making people around me to hate me even more? I got my life to live so do you.. stop looking back and move on can or not? Thats the last thing that im gonna ask you to do.

I so dont wanna screw my last year in Uni.. so many things to do and yet i cant seems to concentrate on them.

Alarm at 6am and amazingly i actually could wake up at 6.30am.. thinking that i might be late later meeting my girls for a morning walk/jog/outing. 7.05am.. kinda weird coz there's no reply no message.. no calls.. So i called Tika.. FML plan CANCEL -_-!!

Now im so blur.


ps: i dyed my hair already.. =)

It was weird that i actually wanted to blog something like this now.

I'd hurt people around me and i seriously am not proud of it or what so ever. Why do we need to have feelings in the first place when we know that things wont work out as it was plan to be? Feelings totally is a big issue and role between ourselves. Maybe a girl like me was just being naive and wanting to trying out new things in her life.. but along the way.. she doesn't realized that what she was doing will end up leaving a huge scar on someone. After one there's another. And why do we tend to repeat the same mistakes again?

But right now I think i know what i want.. perhaps. But history seems to get hold on me and making me hard to move forward. Why is that so? I think that life is being unfair to me but to think about it again.. Life is being unfair to many others too so who am i to even wanna complain bout it rite. FML! "Its better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you're not." which i totally agree with as in what's the point if you love that someone who you want them to be and see rather than in reality they are someone that is not like what you think they are? ( confusing? i think so too. FML! )

I admit that i was never good in making decisions. I'll just take whatever was in front of me and hope that it was the correct decision I'd made. But if it wasn't then .... FML.. I'll just move on and look what's in front in store for me. But for sure there's always something will try to pull u back and making u feel that you left something important behind. Those thoughts just wont leave you alone. Sucks rite? I know. But what's the point grieving over something that wasn't worth grieving for?

At this point, i seriously wanna say Sorry to whoever are reading this.. to whoever that you think i had screwed your life.. to whoever that i once loved and cared.. to whoever that you think i had betrayed your trust.. to whoever that think i had made your life more miserable than ever and to whoever that think I am being selfish. I know that the word 'sorry' is just a word and in some point me myself are tired of hearing that word. It was so overused and people took this word for granted. Well.. although you might say that it wasn't my fault (or maybe it was my fault afterall) but i really do hope that things would turn up to be better each day. Don't you? Oh come on.. it wasn't like the end of the world yet. 2012 is still far away. heh. But do live like you're dying cause life might be short and you never know.

-cheers-

FML!

Swollen ankle. I seriously doesn't know why and how i get this.. -_-!!! double FML!!

FML. FML. FML. FML.

Period kept me awake the whole nite and i only begin to fall asleep at 8am just now. ggaaahh! and woke up at 12 something because my stomach was aching again.

I've changed my blog layout and upgraded it to the newer version.. wOOt! =) It's not actually very new.. haha. Im so outdated. Gahh.



Anyway, i went Sibaraku with my girls, Carol and Tika for a Japanese buffet lunch in Makohta Parade last Tuesday. It wasn't that nice for me thou as they don't serve salmon and unagi =/ Sedih.

There's like only a few selection of sushi at the moment.


Teppanyaki.. well.. this one still quite ok. Not bad at all.

And dessert.. Er.. only the apple was nice. Others was like.. beh jiak wan. Too dry and not sweet. FML.

After the lunch, we went shopping. Bought a top from Kitschen. =) and drop by Kenny's Roger to meet Zul and get free muffins from him. Me likey~


PS : To u know who u are, Im really sorry and wanna thank you for what u have done for me for the past months. I think that im crazy.. u should have known it from the beginning rite? Although it wasn't a long period of time, i'm still glad that I've known u. =) But..why are u gone in FB????

I've abandon my baby blog for a long time.. i know.. i was in a zillion lazy mood to even blog. There's so many things running through my head for the past few months that i cant even put those in words. I was freaking tired of things happening around me and it got me thinking about it over and over again. Sometimes I don't even know what i was worrying about. But for sure what I know now is that i have to be much more independent and stop putting much hope on something that I am unsure of. Great disappointment and letdown are too much for someone to handle no matter how strong that person is. One day that person might just breakdown and feel like no one actually understands and was left all alone thinking of those answers to all questions. FML.


Welcome 2010 and Goodbye 2009. Let bygones be bygones and no matter 2009 was a good year for you or was a goddamn hell sucky year.. Congrats.. another year ahead for you to make it better and not suckier perhaps. As for me... 2009 was kinda bumpy.. I was happy, excited, confuse, disappointed, tired, and the list goes on. Gonna do a recap on 2009 then..


Well 2009 was the year of Ox..


I think this was the best family photo taken on the year 2009. =) I *heart* them so much.


Hang out with a bunch of unknown friendly and crazy people at my elder brother's place..

Like seriously.. I dont even know anyone except for my brother. I do had a hard time fitting in as im still studying and all of them already had a job and are party clubbing people. And i'm the anti-social kind of girl. LOL!! FML!



Went for Sushi King RM2 Promo with a few tutorial mates. I just simply *heart* salmon and unagi. =]


Appeared in one of my tutorial mates' print ad in one of the assignment. We was trying not to laugh thou as those bruises seems so real.

Went for an healthy activity.. cycling at Bukit Cahaya.. I was so tired can. I am not a sports person and cycling uphill really kills me. Somemore we cycled in the rain.. got ourselves all dirty wet and sweat.. gosh.

But it was an achievement to be proud of as we totally explored the whole Bukit Cahaya with only our bicycles.


Dare myself to get a new haircut.. (finally) Which made me look damn weird and funny altogether for the whole first and second week. Almost everyone teased me and even my younger brother was laughing at me whenever he saw me. -_-! FML.


Internship at SK Brothers Realty for 3 months. First few months was like hell to me. Switching me in different departments and do multiple work.


Celebrated my 21st Birthday =) with a bunch of friends and my family. I *heart* them.


A post in 2009 that had the most comment.. Horny Couple where people debating whether it was just a normal Public Display of Affection (PDA) or what.. -__-!!


Went an outing with my ex-colleagues to Ampang Look Out Point.


Breath taking scenery for of coz. Me likey~


Sat Eye on Malaysia for the first time.. =]

Felt mild earthquake for the second time in Malacca. Then meeting and catching up with old buddies.. Get close to them and honestly i learn many new things and get to know more people.


I hang out with them most of the time when i was in Malacca for the weekends and semester break. We celebrated Birthdays.. Hari Raya..and even Christmas together. There's plenty of pictures in my Facebook thou. We visited the Zoo... go for Karaoke most of the time ( ps : I cant sing).. Went Arena for the first time... go for Bowling.. ..


2009 have been wonderful and no doubt when u met with so many wonderful people and some bad arse blardy hell people ( rather not to say who ).


Besides all those wonderful moments.. There are still one part of my life that i could not understand. Letting go a relationship wasn't easy for sure but I have been thinking for so long before i even dare to let him go and instill some selfishness in me so that I could get what i want and not what others want me to do or become. It was confusing and rather complicated can. Disappointments keeps adding in ur head and you feel there's distance in your heart with him that you could barely hold on to it anymore. Patience do have its limit. Same goes to mine.




For sure its not me or him that should be blame in our fail relationship. I'm still glad and wanna thank him for giving me the experience and had helped me in various kind of ways for this whole past years. And i wanted to say sorry too for whatever i did that you think was wrong and i know it hurt you so much but i hope for at least you had learn something from this and remember not to repeat the same mistakes again in your next relationship. I know i did learn alot..