Expect The Unexpected When You Almost Reach Out

It was weird that i actually wanted to blog something like this now.

I'd hurt people around me and i seriously am not proud of it or what so ever. Why do we need to have feelings in the first place when we know that things wont work out as it was plan to be? Feelings totally is a big issue and role between ourselves. Maybe a girl like me was just being naive and wanting to trying out new things in her life.. but along the way.. she doesn't realized that what she was doing will end up leaving a huge scar on someone. After one there's another. And why do we tend to repeat the same mistakes again?

But right now I think i know what i want.. perhaps. But history seems to get hold on me and making me hard to move forward. Why is that so? I think that life is being unfair to me but to think about it again.. Life is being unfair to many others too so who am i to even wanna complain bout it rite. FML! "Its better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you're not." which i totally agree with as in what's the point if you love that someone who you want them to be and see rather than in reality they are someone that is not like what you think they are? ( confusing? i think so too. FML! )

I admit that i was never good in making decisions. I'll just take whatever was in front of me and hope that it was the correct decision I'd made. But if it wasn't then .... FML.. I'll just move on and look what's in front in store for me. But for sure there's always something will try to pull u back and making u feel that you left something important behind. Those thoughts just wont leave you alone. Sucks rite? I know. But what's the point grieving over something that wasn't worth grieving for?

At this point, i seriously wanna say Sorry to whoever are reading this.. to whoever that you think i had screwed your life.. to whoever that i once loved and cared.. to whoever that you think i had betrayed your trust.. to whoever that think i had made your life more miserable than ever and to whoever that think I am being selfish. I know that the word 'sorry' is just a word and in some point me myself are tired of hearing that word. It was so overused and people took this word for granted. Well.. although you might say that it wasn't my fault (or maybe it was my fault afterall) but i really do hope that things would turn up to be better each day. Don't you? Oh come on.. it wasn't like the end of the world yet. 2012 is still far away. heh. But do live like you're dying cause life might be short and you never know.

-cheers-