Expect The Unexpected When You Almost Reach Out

I've abandon my baby blog for a long time.. i know.. i was in a zillion lazy mood to even blog. There's so many things running through my head for the past few months that i cant even put those in words. I was freaking tired of things happening around me and it got me thinking about it over and over again. Sometimes I don't even know what i was worrying about. But for sure what I know now is that i have to be much more independent and stop putting much hope on something that I am unsure of. Great disappointment and letdown are too much for someone to handle no matter how strong that person is. One day that person might just breakdown and feel like no one actually understands and was left all alone thinking of those answers to all questions. FML.


Welcome 2010 and Goodbye 2009. Let bygones be bygones and no matter 2009 was a good year for you or was a goddamn hell sucky year.. Congrats.. another year ahead for you to make it better and not suckier perhaps. As for me... 2009 was kinda bumpy.. I was happy, excited, confuse, disappointed, tired, and the list goes on. Gonna do a recap on 2009 then..


Well 2009 was the year of Ox..


I think this was the best family photo taken on the year 2009. =) I *heart* them so much.


Hang out with a bunch of unknown friendly and crazy people at my elder brother's place..

Like seriously.. I dont even know anyone except for my brother. I do had a hard time fitting in as im still studying and all of them already had a job and are party clubbing people. And i'm the anti-social kind of girl. LOL!! FML!



Went for Sushi King RM2 Promo with a few tutorial mates. I just simply *heart* salmon and unagi. =]


Appeared in one of my tutorial mates' print ad in one of the assignment. We was trying not to laugh thou as those bruises seems so real.

Went for an healthy activity.. cycling at Bukit Cahaya.. I was so tired can. I am not a sports person and cycling uphill really kills me. Somemore we cycled in the rain.. got ourselves all dirty wet and sweat.. gosh.

But it was an achievement to be proud of as we totally explored the whole Bukit Cahaya with only our bicycles.


Dare myself to get a new haircut.. (finally) Which made me look damn weird and funny altogether for the whole first and second week. Almost everyone teased me and even my younger brother was laughing at me whenever he saw me. -_-! FML.


Internship at SK Brothers Realty for 3 months. First few months was like hell to me. Switching me in different departments and do multiple work.


Celebrated my 21st Birthday =) with a bunch of friends and my family. I *heart* them.


A post in 2009 that had the most comment.. Horny Couple where people debating whether it was just a normal Public Display of Affection (PDA) or what.. -__-!!


Went an outing with my ex-colleagues to Ampang Look Out Point.


Breath taking scenery for of coz. Me likey~


Sat Eye on Malaysia for the first time.. =]

Felt mild earthquake for the second time in Malacca. Then meeting and catching up with old buddies.. Get close to them and honestly i learn many new things and get to know more people.


I hang out with them most of the time when i was in Malacca for the weekends and semester break. We celebrated Birthdays.. Hari Raya..and even Christmas together. There's plenty of pictures in my Facebook thou. We visited the Zoo... go for Karaoke most of the time ( ps : I cant sing).. Went Arena for the first time... go for Bowling.. ..


2009 have been wonderful and no doubt when u met with so many wonderful people and some bad arse blardy hell people ( rather not to say who ).


Besides all those wonderful moments.. There are still one part of my life that i could not understand. Letting go a relationship wasn't easy for sure but I have been thinking for so long before i even dare to let him go and instill some selfishness in me so that I could get what i want and not what others want me to do or become. It was confusing and rather complicated can. Disappointments keeps adding in ur head and you feel there's distance in your heart with him that you could barely hold on to it anymore. Patience do have its limit. Same goes to mine.




For sure its not me or him that should be blame in our fail relationship. I'm still glad and wanna thank him for giving me the experience and had helped me in various kind of ways for this whole past years. And i wanted to say sorry too for whatever i did that you think was wrong and i know it hurt you so much but i hope for at least you had learn something from this and remember not to repeat the same mistakes again in your next relationship. I know i did learn alot..